The connection was there. They were both more than fully aware of the attraction. He had longed for her for so long it was like a physical ache. She knew that it could never be. They danced around the subject. It was safe to flirt. It was safe to imagine what could be if they could just let go that one time. Just once. He thought of her. She imagined how her life might be different if they could just be together. Imagined a life with him as her partner. It hurt knowing that once they gave in to their desire, it would no longer be safe. They would sacrifice too much. They had too much to lose. They were happy apart but were wanting so badly just to have that one taste. To see. To touch. To explore. What could it possibly hurt? It would hurt because it could never just be one taste. It was already past the point of simple pleasure and had gone in to the realm of danger. For them. For their lives.
So they joked around. They talked of other things. They were to each other what they could not get from their lives already. But nothing more. And they felt it. It was there all the time like a ghost looking over their shoulder. Neither could stop thinking about the other.
It wasn't fair. Would life EVER give her what she wanted? Was it fair for him to want her knowing that it was wrong? They were both confused. They knew even thinking about each other or talking to each other about such things was just wrong. So very wrong.
They stood under the same stars. Under the same moon. In different lives. Knowing each other was alive and there was just enough. They walked around their daily lives with their loves and family and jobs and friends... It was enough just knowing how they felt.
For now.
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